Tonight, at bedtime...

I was lying on Ella's bed with her tonight as we tucked the girls in.  She had such a concerned look on her face. 

[me]  "Are you okay, honey?"
[Ella]  "I'll tell you later- because of Adelia and Audra."
[me, scooting closer to her]  "You can whisper in my ear."
[Ella, whispering and teary]  "I'm just sad that the baby is really dead."
[me]  "We told you the baby had died, honey...."
[Ella]  "I know.  But I prayed that God would bring the baby back to life."

...and then just minutes later, while tucking Audra (4), in:

[Audra] "I'll pray for you to have another baby, mommy..."
[me, bending to kiss her] "Thank you, sweet girl."
[Audra] " that doesn't die."


We are still waiting for my body to physically miscarry this tiny one.... it's been just over 3 weeks and my midwife says my body seems to be "stubborn".  When I repeated that to Mark, he said "that's because your body just wants to take care of this baby."  True.

Thank you for your continued prayers, friends.  This has been a difficult few weeks.


  1. Oh Stacy, I didn't realize that part of the miscarriage hadn't happened yet. I'm afraid to think how I would be if this was happening to me. You are such an encouragement and I will pray more diligently and more precisely for you and your family. I love you, dear internet friend. And Mark's comment is so dear, what a treasure he is. Make sure Ella knows that; it is a comfort to have such a daddy and husband like him. xoxo

    1. Thank you, sweet Heather. We are now past that, and I'm forming a post with more details. Thank you for your prayers.
      Mark IS such a treasure. He is the best, and we are daily thankful for him. (((hugs))) to you, friend.

  2. ((((hugs))))
    Oh friend, I am so sorry. My body was stubborn too. It is hard to wait in this place. Continued prayers for all of you, Sweet Ella's heart that girl.

    1. Thank you, friend. Love to you....

  3. Oh Stacy, I am praying right now. I remember that a part of me was happy that I could still hold the baby in this way, but another part of me knew the harsh reality. I'm so sorry my friend. I am praying for so much joy and grace to fill your heart, mind and body. And, for your family too. We love you xoxo

    1. Thank you, Lucy....
      As I posted in my response to Heather, we've moved past the waiting now. I will post more details as I have the time.
      Thank you for your faithful prayers, friend.

  4. Children have a way of undoing us, don't they?
    Blessings to you all in this hard, hard season.



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