As for blogging...

... I am back.

When I wrapped this up a little over a month ago, I really did think it was the end. I just re-read that post. My question then was this, "Is blogging a pursuit that God is pleased with in my life?"

You know what? It wasn't. Quite frankly, blogging had become too much in my life. I cared too much what people thought in the blogosphere. My thoughts resided here when they should have been elsewhere. One too many times, I was saying, "Just a minute" to one of my children who waited near my elbow as I blogged. By the time I got back to them, some 15 minutes later, they didn't have the same question. Or I was impatient or crabby at their interruption.

I'll be the first one to tell you that I lack discipline. It's a tough one for me. It's why my house is full of clutter. It's why I rarely get up early to pray even though I want to. It's why I begin projects but leave them unfinished for months (okay, sometimes years).

I knew that God was nudging me to lay blogging down, but I wasn't sure why. The day after I wrote my final post, my Bible study was on "Tearing Down the High Places." I puzzled then if I had any high places to tear down. By the end of the study, I knew the why of it. This whole blogging venture had become an idol in my life.

I hesitate to even use the word idol because my fear is that some of you will think, "Sheesh. That girl must have been on the computer ALL THE TIME." I wasn't, truly. I was not addicted to the computer, I was not neglecting my husband or my children. (Overall. There were moments. Check confessions three paragraphs up.)

I never would have used the word idol before in this context. It's not like I was worshipping my computer. And yet, this. From my study that day: "Our thoughts can be held captive to someone or something that builds up our egos or satisfies our fleshly appetites. Simply put, captivating thoughts are controlling thoughts-- things you find yourself meditating on too often." And this: "Satan fights dirty. He jumps on anything that could keep you from centering your thoughts on Christ." And the reminder that the object of our thoughts itself (in my case, blogging) is not necessarily sin. "The sin lies in the exaltation of it in our own minds." (all quotes are from Beth Moore)

So this blogging thing- a good thing- was captivating my thoughts. I recognized it as a high place and found comfort in this:

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

A week or so later (after that final post) I realized that maybe it wasn't a permanent thing, this end to blogging. Maybe that nudging was soley for the purpose of removing that high place. And me being the task-oriented person I am, wanted to pick it right back up: High place removed, back to blogging. But I wanted to make sure God would bless that. So I set some parameters:

- I would not blog for an entire month..

- I would not move forward unless I had Mark's full support. And his encouragement to do so.

- I would move our computer from it's centrally-located place in our home (where it has proven to be a distraction) to another room. Downstairs, in the basement, as it resides now.

- I would email some women I respect in the blogosphere and seek their wisdom and insight. Women who blog regularly and have been doing so for some time. (Not regarding my situation, necessarily, but on blogging in general.) What were their guidelines, their time-restrictions, what have they learned? etc...

- I would continue to pray and seek God's wisdom on whether or not I should pick it back up.

A couple of weeks ago I told Mark, "I could take it or leave it, truthfully." I was no longer pining to get to the computer. Which was such a good place to be. And I was perfectly fine with the idea that I was done.

That gradually changed. I found that I wanted to continue writing here. I kept having more I wanted to share with you, dear readers. (If you're still there, that is.)

So, I begin again. I continue to pray that my time here (along with every other usage of my time) will be honoring to God, and that this small offering of my writing might bring encouragement to some of you.

Things are a little different. My computer is in a different spot. I have set some computer restrictions for myself. (No blogging (writing, reading, or checking comments) while the kids are awake, basically.) I will not be posting every day. I've removed the sitemeter.

I considered removing the comments function, too, but for now I've decided to keep it. Yesterday I stumbled across this quote, from C.S. Lewis:

Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You, too? Thought I was the only one." That is one of the things I really appreciate-- hearing from you via the comments and finding out, "What! You, too?" are all of you? I've missed you.

1 comment:

  1. Nov. 7, 2006 - What a treat
    Posted by momco3
    to see your entry pop up when I checked my "friends" posts.
    Welcome back. May your documentation of your journey continue to bring glory to God.


    Nov. 7, 2006 - Stacy-
    Posted by PreschoolersandPeace
    You're a blessing to those who read your blog! May God use you to sharpen all of us.



    Nov. 7, 2006 - Untitled Comment
    Posted by Tiany
    Welcome back, I can understand where are you are coming from and I once had similar issues and a few months back set the same guidelines for my blogging. Only blog while boys are napping or in the evening after they are in bed and I don't blog while hubby is home either.

    I keep a site meter but it is mainly for security reasons since i am writing about my family and sharing family pics, I want to know who is reading and from where! :-)

    Hope to see you around the blogosphere :-)


    Nov. 7, 2006 - I'm glad
    Posted by Amy
    So glad to read something you've written. You are a good writer and I have always thought so! I look forward to reading more on your blog! How fun! And I'm happy to see you were smarter than me to figure out how to get the site meter off. Good job.
    Love ya friend, amy


    Nov. 7, 2006 - Untitled Comment
    Posted by Rebeca
    I'm glad your back! And I'm glad that you are following as the Lord leads. May He continue to bless you as you share what you are learning along the way.


    Nov. 7, 2006 - Yippppeeeeee!
    Posted by Sandi


    Nov. 8, 2006 - Untitled Comment
    Posted by Corin
    Yahoo!!!!!!! So glad you're back!


    Nov. 8, 2006 - Untitled Comment
    Posted by Melkhi
    Glad that I stopped by and didn't delete you from my friends list! Welcome back! :)


    Nov. 8, 2006 - YIPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
    Posted by Michelle
    Seriously...could you hear me scream from Indiana???? You know my heart on this matter...I have shared it with you several times...I am so thrilled that you are back, and I know that the Lord will use you to bless, encourage, challenge, enlighten, lift up, and teach so many women!!!! As usual, you show such a heart for seeking God's will above all other things...for pleasing Him in all you do. I am thankful that you are back to blogging!


    Nov. 8, 2006 - Yipeeee
    Posted by Dana
    I knew it .....
    I knew it .....


    Nov. 9, 2006 - Welcome Back!
    Posted by Anonymous
    Well, imagine my pleasantly surprised face when I saw not one, but two new posts at one of my all-time favorite, be it "on-hiatus", blogs ever. I clicked over hoping, just hoping, that I might see a new entry and I did! What a joy to read your words again.

    I had recently read a question from you to Kendra on preschoolers and peace and wondered if you'd be back soon. So glad that you're back. So glad that you can see some blessing in blogging. So glad that you listen to God for what some might consider even the "small" things. I've learned that nothing that consumes our mind is a small thing to our big God. Welcome back, dear friend. You've been missed!

    Ever so warmly,


    Nov. 9, 2006 - Oops, something else...
    Posted by Joni
    Something that you might consider...bloglines has helped me considerably in my time management with blogging. The blog-surfing that I used to do, I don't do nearly so much now. Go to and sign up, including those blogs that you like to check regularly. Then you click on bloglines once a day to see which of your favorite sites have been updated and read them all that way. Really. It's saved me tons of time!


    PS And I'm excited...I'll be adding you to my bloglines now that you're back!


    Nov. 9, 2006 - Welcome Back!
    Posted by Anonymous
    I am so excited that you have returned to blogging. I am looking forward to the wisdom you share and your wonderful writing. Your love for our Lord and Savior is so apparent. God Bless you and your family.



    Nov. 9, 2006 - Untitled Comment
    Posted by jengresak
    Ha ha you sneaky thing!! I didn't check it today after I read your email. You got me : ) Welcome back! We missed you! You know I love that quote and have heard it many times, but I honestly thought it was Winnie the Pooh -ROFL! I will have to find dear C.S. Lewis in heaven someday and apologize!

    Jen -doing the happy dance : )


    Nov. 9, 2006 - Welcome back
    Posted by Anonymous
    Stacy- I am glad that you are blogging, but much more glad that you want to honor God thorugh all you do.
    Stephanie (AGCI friend)


    Nov. 10, 2006 - Big Smile!
    Posted by Sarah
    What fun to find a new entry on your lonely (not anymore) blog! I too am glad you are blogging again!


    Nov. 10, 2006 - :)
    Posted by Anonymous
    I missed your blogging terribly. You have such wisdom to share, and you have blessed, encouraged and challenged me more than you will ever know. SO glad you are back. I will pray that your boundaries remain as they should when it comes to blogging. Warmly, Amy Crawford


    Nov. 11, 2006 - Thank you all...
    Posted by reformingmama
    ... for such a warm welcome back!
    Blessings to each and every one of you!


    Nov. 11, 2006 - Dear Stacy...
    Posted by AussieinAmerica
    What a pleasure to click over here and find that you are back!!! I am looking forward to reading your new posts again. You are always an encouragement to me....such a good example!
    Aussie in America


    Nov. 13, 2006 - Weclome back...
    Posted by Anonymous
    Everyone has said it... so I am just nodding here... and smiling for the work God has done in your heart, Stacy.

    Your heart blesses mine.

    Much love,


    Nov. 14, 2006 - Untitled Comment
    Posted by Anonymous
    Woo Hoo! So glad I just happened to click on your link from Holly's comment page. I am glad you are back and will gleam from your words and inspirations.

    Welcome back....


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